Here’s another installment in a series of emails that took place between Michael and one of his senior students beginning in August of 2009. May you find the exchange interesting and enriching.
June 22, 2010
Student: What was there before any event, and what is there after any event, is awareness. Or, All-knowledge. But as consciousness is observed arising from this vast unknown, like when I wake up in the morning and the moment comes where I am aware of this consciousness arising, it seems unable to see itself as consciousness in its return into the vast unknown.
Michael: So if the awareness of awareness is consciousness, and this consciousness shows up spontaneously, you can see it. But then consciousness also has the ability to slip away without us being aware of it. Is this what youre asking?
Student: Yeah. I guess. I don’t know how to say it. The receding wave of consciousness going back to its source seems unknowable. Is this right, or is it knowable? I mean, awareness is there as I fall to sleep, and is there when I wake up. Its even there when I dream, and, periodically, even when Im sleeping but not dreaming. But it seems like awareness cannot see itself unless consciousness is arising or has arisen. How does awareness know awareness when it is all the same thing?
Michael: On the one hand, awareness doesnt know anything. It doesnt need to. Its just awareness. Simple, clear and radiant. Consciousness, on the other hand, is the mirror that awareness looks into and then sees itself, so to speak. When awareness is no longer looking in the mirror, it doesn’t disappear, it just no longer has any point of reference. It has no circumference and no center. It just is.
Put another way, consciousness is the crash of awarenesss wave onto the shore of self. The wave’s retreat is expansive while its crash is met by something that is somewhat finite. Where does the wave go after it hits shore? Where does it not go? How can awareness not be aware of itself whether its reflection is seen or not?
Yowza. Pretty cool, huh?
Student: It is fine with just its being; its isness. Everyone’s running around, avoiding the simple isness, because in a way, it’s death. Is this right?
Michael: Yep. Its the death, certainly, of whats familiar.
Student: Is this what the pretending is about? All of these stories built on the false assumption that we are not each other keeps the isness at bay. We are looking to keep things unsettled and in conflict in order to avoid seeing ourselves as nothing, when all it is is the wave reintegrating?
Michael: Yes. Its all just the infinite expanse of Emptiness reintegrating itself as somethingness.
Student: Except that there is no birth and no death in this spacious Emptiness, right?
Michael: Emptiness is unmade and uncreated… always.